Friday, April 1, 2011

who says your not perfect

You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone.
You can deny it all you want, but if it still hurts, you still care.
But we were too scared to say the things worth saying

Hold on to what keeps you together and
let go of what tears you apart
Deep down, I know you really are that wonderful guy I thought you were. But you’re scared. Scared because your feelings for me are so strong, scared to try and make things work under such difficult circumstances, scared because I’m the first girl who has ever loved you. And that’s why you ended things and why you’re being such a douchebag, because you’re so scared. I wish you could get over your fears and realize what we have is worth the risk of heartache.
never look back at all the damage we have done to eachother.
Fuck being a teenager. Fuck loving the people that don’t give a shit about you. Fuck staying up at night thinking about someone that doesn’t care about you. Fuck being led on. Fuck crying over someone that broke your heart. Fuck the friends that leave you once they find a boyfriend/girlfriend. Fuck parents that have a go at you for everything that you do. Fuck the people that have too high expectations of you. Fuck the people that think you’re capable of nothing. Fuck sitting at home feeling lonely. Fuck feeling like there is no one that loves you. Fuck seeing the people that you love change and leave you behind. Fuck the people that don’t appreciate you. Fuck growing up.

“Even people I’ve known for so long soon become strangers to me. People change and grow tired of having you in their life. It’s sad, but you have to adapt with it.” — Megan Fox

My theory was that if I kept my distance, maybe you would see what you're missing.
He knows you care that's why he doesn't
So take a look in that mirror remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be.
- One Tree Hill
You don't get it do you?
You made it so fucking easy to walk away.
You lied through your teeth and for that, fuck your feelings
And these breakup songs are starting to make sense again, and i really wish they didn't.
New year, new mistakes
Your beautiful, just not on the inside.
I wish I could show you the hell you put me through. Then maybe for once in your life you could see how it feels to be made a fool of, to be made a slut, and to have everyone saying shit about you that they know nothing about. I just want you to understand what that feels like.
Go ahead, pretend I don’t exist; I hope every single fucking time we make eye contact you remember every memory you used to love. And I hope it hurts.
Forgive me because I am sensitive and unsure. Forgive me because I needed you to say something and you didn't say anything.
Don't fuck with a girl who's got nothing to lose.
"Tell him I hate him, Tell him I don't need him. Tell him to have a great life without me, Tell him he means nothing to me.
Just don't tell him I said this with tears in my eyes"
Because you know me right? You know me so well. You know everything about me, my influences, what hurts me, what helps me, what haunts me, you know it all right? You know what I've been through, going through and will go through don't you? You know all my choices and the reasons as to why I made them, right? Listen, think what you want when you come and mouth off about how ridiculous, or stupid, or slutty or dumb or ugly or whatever else you want to call me, but remember that you don't know half of the story, and I doubt when you're pointing the finger, your own slate is clean, is it?
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone
Party hard, make mistakes, laugh endlessly. Do things you're afraid to do. After all, you're only young once.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Because you're young, you're torn between a world of hate and a world of dreams. So much to lose, so much to gain, so much to fight for, so much to change.




And everyone knows what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. So when you try to pull her down, you're helping her last longer.
I want a new start. I want a new hair color and new clothes. I want a new house and i want my problems gone. I want to learn how to dance and how to sing good. I want to be able to do something that makes other people jealous. I'm ready for a new me.
I want someone to share my secrets with, someone to talk to late at night when I can't sleep, someone who feels comfortable around my family, someone to comfort me when i'm scared, to hold me when i'm sad, someone who doesn't need to say that he loves me for me to know its true.

I wanna have fun. I don’t want a perfect life. I want friends that I can party with all the time. I wanna guy who will hold me like I’ll never be hurt again. I want happiness again.
All I need tonight is my girls, a few shots & a dancefloor and I swear I'll forget you.


Shit happens. It is what it is.  And sometimes, thats all we can say.

I’m a good enough person to forgive you but not stupid enough to trust you.


life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said that it would be easy; they just promised it would be worth it.

It sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos, old text messages, even old statuses. And it brings a smile to your face, but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn’t be looking back, but you can’t help it because they really meant something to you and you thought it would have lasted. but it didn’t.

Its almost ironic. The people in my life who say “im always going to be here for you” are the ones who walk away first.
I am what everyone from my past didn't want me to be


Acting like you hate me, I left because you made me
I push people away who start to love me because i know that if they stopped loving me, it would kill me.

Yeah, I'm smiling but you aren't the reason anymore.


letting you know, im doing perfectly fine without you.
if not, even better than when i was with you.

"I'm not going to stress over you anymore. It isn't worth it. I tried to work something out, but you just ignored it. I'm not trying to say I don't want you because I definitely do. All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you."
beauty is not measured by your jeans size.
don’t let the world fool you.


You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work. Fuck that. And fuck the air force academy. If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love and fuck the rest.
-Little Miss Sunshine

i could be a thousand miles away from you on the caribbean vacation; drinking a strawberry smoothie, wearing a bikini, and sitting in front of the ocean.
and honey. you'd still be the first thing on my mind

if you're going to pressure me to do something, i'm going to do the opposite. so if you tell me to get skinny, i'm probably going to get fat, just to piss you off.
- Kelly Clarkson

Now that summer's over, we'll wonder what to do.
I'll hold you closer but it won't matter in the end.
It's obvious you're leaving soon just another heart to mend.
So, what happens once you lose control?
When the future has to start.
What happens when you're still in love but time rips you apart.
Is there ever an answer for when love is not enough

so destroy me dear. i’ve gotten so good at breaking with a smile on my face. come on, show me you’re just like all of them. boys prove me right every time, they’re all the same.

I am who I am and your approval isn't needed.

Did you ever have the feeling that you wanted to go,
and still have the feeling that you wanted to stay?
I wanted it to be you.
I wanted it to be you so badly



Always remember pain makes people change, so don’t hurt them when you don’t want them to change.
You made your choice, and it wasn’t me. So if one day you try to come back and the choice is mine, it won’t be you. Karma hurts,

Just because I forgive you, doesn’t mean I want you back in my life. I’m letting go and moving on to someone better.

Did I mention, when I see you it stings like hell, due to the fact that we could have something. That’ll never happen.
I think I'm scared to be happy for once.
Because when I finally am happy, something bad always happens.



I like the feeling of always having someone chasing after me, wanting to win me over and constantly fighting for me. But in all honestly, they will never win me over because i have had my mind & heart set on him for way to long to ever give the other boys a second glance.

Even though i don’t think you’ve realized how much you’ve put me through, i hope one day it hits you hard


keep it classy, never trashy just a little nasty