i'm no longer crying for you

Why do I care? I care because I knew you for two weeks and I feel like I've known you for two years. I care because you're the only one I can talk to without feeling judged, or misplaced. Or labeled or whatever, I care because when I look at you, I feel happy. Not the kind of happy that lasts a couple hours. The kind of happy that I know will be guaranteed for, well as long as I'm with you. I care because I know you care about me. Well actually I don't know because you're so hard to read. But for once it's great I know that everything will be okay. But uhh that's only if I know for sure that you care. If not then fuck everything, you know?

They say we haven't been through half as much as they have. Sure, they watched in horror as they heard the news of Kennedy being shot, and went through the Vietnam War. They went through Raids, the Kent State mystery, but we've been through Columbine and saw the Twin Towers fall. We've been through Virginia Tech, and have had to fight alcoholism, and battle eating disorders. We fight a different kind of war; one with ourselves and never being good enough. We've seen bulimia and anorexia. They say we haven't been through much, but we've been through just as much, and maybe more.

Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A. You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%. You're there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most, and the next day they don't pick up their phone. You give something your all and sometimes get little to nothing back. You care so much about someone who doesn't care enough about you to say hi once in awhile. You give someone your time, and they give you "Sorry, I'm busy". It seems like you're giving everyone everything, and they're just walking away with it.

"You should never give yourself a chance to fall apart, because when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practice being strong instead."
-Eat.Pray.Love

I thought I knew you. But I guess it's easier to see what we want than to look for the truth.You think you know me but you don't. And that means you don't know what I can do.

Things have changed so much.
They've gotten to the point where
I really don't know you anymore.

You want to know what it's like to be in love with you?
It's like taking me to the top of the highest mountain,
showing me the entire world and telling me 'this is everything you can't have.'

Friends are people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They’re the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don’t judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends the best times of my life.

I'm a teenage girl: I have my good days and my bad days, & sometimes I take it out on others. When my iPod is blasting, the rest of the world gets tuned out. There's a boy that I can't seem to stop thinking about. [he's the reason I look forward to school everyday] I can't go a day without saying or doing something silly. I truly don't know what I'd do without my friends- [they know how to make me happy and are always there for me] I can be stubborn, bitchy, and a little clueless at times, & sometimes, in one day, dozens of things go wrong.

Your biggest challenge isn't someone else.It's the ache in your lungs, the burning in your legs, and the voice inside you that yells "can't". But you don’t listen.You push harder, you hear the voice that whispers "can". And you discover that the person you thought you  were is no match for the one you really are.

He makes me happy. The kind of happiness that only comes from love. The kind that gives you that tickling sensation in your stomach, and shivers up your spine.

Sure, she's pretty, but it's about more than that. You two connect. Anything you throw at her, she can throw right back. You figured out what's going on in that predictable head of hers in under five minutes, but something tells you that her heart would take about five years.

the other day i woke up smiling. not because you were next to me, or because the smell of your hoodie made me melt, but because when we were young, you promised me one thing: you'd never leave me, and you didn't.

never there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you

If he really loves you, it won't matter if you're wearing sweats from Wal-Mart, or jeans from Abercrombie, he'll be happy just being with you.

I only want to go back to the days where "Daddy" could solve everything, it didn't matter whether you were a boy or girl while playing catch with friends. Curfew was at eight so you wouldn't be late for your bath, and the only heartbreak you had is when your puppy ran away. I only want to be a kid again.

What's teenage love? It's staying up late for each other and barely staying awake in class the next day. It's passing each other between classes and stopping to say Hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. It's going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. It's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, and you resting your head in his arms. It's walking around at night, for no reason at all; his chest, her head, looking at the stars. It's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. It's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. It's teenage love, here to stay, here to play with our hearts and never to go away.

you're the type of person people could write a million songs about.

you take one look at someone, and judge them. its a natural instinct; you automatically think positive or negative thoughts about someone depending on how attractive they are. before you judge think about what they have to offer. they could have a beautiful story to share, they could change your life & be the best thing that has ever happened to you. so stop with the negative thoughts, dont be stuck up & picture everyone as beautiful. life is so much better that way.

Someone will always catch you when you fall, and it won't be who you thought it would be. The people that love you most might watch you fall, wait, and congratulate you when you find your own way back up. This doesn't mean they love you less. They just know you're stronger than you give yourself credit for.

Hey, listen. I'm comfortable around you, and these flirt sessions we have pretty much rock, but you have to win my heart, because right now it's stuck with some jerk who honestly doesn't deserve it. But I can't do anything about it right now because I fell harder for him than I did for anybody else, and unless he randomly disappears off the face of the earth one day, my stomach is still gonna drop to my feet when I see him. So, please, win my heart over.

In high school, everything's different than in grade school. Everyone sort of understands each other, & people get along. some relationships last, & mean something. others are just for the fun of it, or hurt you, but it's worth what you learned in the end. Hookups are just for the pleasure, & you learn something as well. crushes don't mean being scarred to tell someone you like them. Friends become closer, more serious. you learn who you can trust. Memories last a life time, & stay forever with you. It's just a point of growing up.

This is like a game to you, one day you love me & then the next day you arent around. Put the dice down and think. Would you rather take two steps forward or take a step back? If you go back, you have to stay there. Go forward? Then you loose. Im gone..forever & i truely mean it this time.

'm not a little girl anymore. For anyone whose ever betrayed me, intentionally hurt me or two-timed me, I'm not going to dwell on trying to make your life miserable and tell you I'm going to fight you. No, better yet, I'm going to sit here and tell you karma is a motherfucker and you'll get yours

Darling, I want you to be happy. I want you to look in the mirror and see the gorgeous smile the way I see it. It lights up my life, and puts a smile on my face, so darling, please smile.

The worst thing about going back to school? No, it's not the getting up early, or the homework. Not mean teachers or crowded hallways. It's seeing the boy it took you all summer to get over, and falling for him all over again

so do your heart a favor, turn around and leave. it may not be what you wanted but baby girl, it's what you need

Stop right there; don't say another word. I truly don't want to hear what you have to say. We're through. You fucked it up. Everything was perfect, until you decided it wasn't.

come on, I dare you. Try to lie to me with a straight face. Try to scare my heart out of this place. I bet you can't do it. I bet you're too scared. You're too scared I'll cry, but you know what? I'm not going to, because this is goodbye. I'm tough, ambitious & I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, then okay.

You're not cute, or exceptionally hot. Your eyes aren't anything special, & your smile isn't anything that stands out in a crowd. So, people ask me why I fell for you. I couldn't answer, because there's no way to describe what you mean to me, or how you said the sweetest things late at night. I couldn't formulate into words because no one would understand.

You know, people are always asking, "Are you okay?" But they're never really expecting the truth... Cause the reality of the matter is, if I was okay, you wouldn't really have to wonder.

You thought I couldn't do this without you, but guess what... I sleep great at night now. I don't hurt because you're not here. I just had to learn to accept it & move on, & I did. But you, you're the one who keeps crawling back. So next time you think, "Oh hey, she's happy. Gotta mess that up," it's not going to happen, because this time, you're not going to get what you want. This time I'm going to get what I want, & what I want, is not you.

Come lay in bed with me. I just need you tonight. I need you to hold me, talk to me. Nothing major. Today's just been one of those days where I need you to make me feel loved.

do you ever wish you could hear the sirens of the ambulance, wake up in the emergency room, and hear the doctor say, "she isn't going to make it", just so you could find out who really cares about you?

But mostly, I cried because my 
life  had been going full speed for so 
long & now it had just stopped, like 
running right into a big brick wall, 
knocking the wind & the fight right
out of me. & I didn't know if I ever even 
wanted to get up & start breathing again. We're so busy watching out for what's just ahead of us that we don't take time to enjoy where we are.

after everything we went through, i cant be friends with you. you're a lot stronger than me, you will move on so much faster. so no, i will not be your friend. if i become your friend, i will never get over you. i think im going to have to say goodbye, maybe not forever but at least for a while until i find someone else to take your place..

You`ve got someone here. Someone who wants to make it alright, someone who loves you more than life, someone right here.

I wish you knew how much this hurts. How every second of every day I'm holding my stomach & fighting back tears. Just for one day, I wish you could feel how I felt and maybe you'd change your mind.

the hardest part to deal with, more than schoolwork, school, life and friends, more than, as she put it ‘alternating between not caring and caring and regretting not caring when i care’ was that on top of everything - on top of driving themselves to be smart, pretty, thin and athletic - perhaps the most difficult pressure for high school students was that despite it all, they also have to push themselves to appear happy.

While I'm busy looking up at the balloon, I've realized that there's an ice cream melting on my hand. Makes sense? Don't look for something better when you already got the sweetest.

 i wish you were here.

I looked back on us today, and I honestly don’t know why I missed you, and why I wanted you back. Sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, I trusted you less, and the more I loved you, the less I loved myself. But now I’m free, and I’m not sorry. I had to get out. I knew it was over long before you said it. And I thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. Of course I’ll never forget you, but there’s no way I’m ever going back. So goodbye, my first love. Thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.

If he honestly cared about you one bit he wouldn’t have left. Not the first time, not the second time, not ever

I don't know what I want to do with my life, I just know i want to do it. I want to see my world. I want to meet every single person breathing on this earth. I want to give everyone a hug or a handshake and I want to make someone's life a little easier. I want to be different than the people I know because that's what makes us beautiful. I want to be absolutely ridiculous before I die. I don't want regrets. I want to stand for something

don't give up, okay? I know you've been hurt, I know how it feels. believe me, I do. but the feeling will pass, the tears will stop falling, your heart will heal itself. I promise you it will, so hold on and don't let go. don't lose hope because I promise you'll find someone who will treat you right the way, the way he never did. someone who will never ever leave you the way he did. he'll be worth the wait, so hang in there because I love you and I want you to be happy.

You kiss a hell of a lot better than you listen. Maybe that's why I can't get enough of you. It's true when they say old habits are hard to break, but you'll always remain nothing but my most tempting mistake.

I've decided I need to be more spontaneous - stop thinking about things so much and just do them, or else nothing that I want is ever gonna happen. Like today, there were so many things I wanted to do - that I should have done - but I waited too long and missed my chance. So tomorrow I'm gonna try much harder to just do the things that I want - not think about it, so hopefully it will be better.

I want to be hard for you to forget, I want to have the kind of impact on you where you know you'll never find anyone who can take my place, because that's what you are to me. I want it to hurt like hell when you see me. I want you to feel what you put me through.

Promise yourself to be strong, that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of eveything & make your optimism come true. Think only the best, work only for the best, & expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past & press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side as long as you are true to the best that`s in you.

At some point, you`ve got to man up & jump. You`ve got to quit being scared of the "maybes" & "what-ifs" & just freaking jump. Quit cheating yourself out of the best thing that could ever happen to you, quit cheating him out of what he`s wanted for so long, & just fall. Fall hard, fall long, & fall forever.

It’s got to the point when hanging out seems to be a chore, when talking involves too much effort, when the butterflies are gone, and when we kiss it only feels like your lips on mine.

I’ve discovered a new medicine. Its quotes, I read them and soak them in. They help numb the pain of feeling, and they release all the emotions that I myself can’t put words to. In fact this medication has become my new addiction.

so now we're at the part of the movie where i showed up on your doorstep in the dark & pouring rain & i poured my heart out to you. the part where you took it all in & chose her. so now i'm driving; driving to the airport. so i can move 2000 miles away and get on with my life. so you'll go back to your couch & keep watching the movie with the other girl. & you'll see that certain scene or she'll say those magic words,the ones that remind you of everything you once saw in what we could be. & you'll realize your mistake,jump up & leave her. you'll get in your car & speed all the way to the airport. for awhile you won't be able to find me,but then at the last possible second right before my plane leaves you'll run in, wipe the tears from my eyes & we'll finally have that storybook ending that i spend my nights dreaming about. i just hope you make it in time.

It`s those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for beath between each laugh. It`s about those moments where you get high off of just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don`t care. You don`t care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are the kids sitting next to you. Cause it`s all we really need, isn`t it? Those kids next to you. The ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.

You pulled me back into your arms, hugged me for longer and told me you didn't want me to go; I live for these moments

It's funny how the less you talk, the more you begin to realize it was not meant to be. It's funny how slow it began, and how fast it ended. It's funny how in the beginning he liked you, but in the end he like someone else. It's funny how he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

Sweetheart, you can't bullshit me. See I've lied to myself enough to know when someone else is doing it. So let's try this again, and how about the truth this time?

take me away

She's getting to you. You're finding out that you don't like being
 without her; you're feeling exactly how she did.

Inside me there is still the little girl who believed anything was possible, that both fairytale and dreams came true, that there really was a 'prince charming' waiting for me somewhere and that one day I would know what love was.

All I could think about was that time we stayed up all night talking. You didn't say that I was wrong or stupid, you didn't laugh at me when I confessed my wildest dreams. You just listened, and it was then that I knew I wanted to be with you.

I was in mid sentence when you kissed me for the first time, for once in my life i was completely speechless. The affect that you have me is like no other. I'm the type of person who never knows what they want. I'm spontaneous, stubborn and sometimes a major bitch. But with you, every time i look at you i can't help but smile until my jaw aches. You're the reason i get out of bed in the morning, even when i am  exhausted because i was up late talking to you. Knowing that i get to see you is always the highlight of my day. The best part of all of this though, is that you feel the exact same way. It's been a while since i felt the butterflies in my stomach, i never realized how much i missed these feelings until now. I finally know what i want & its you.

you want to know the difference between her and other girls? she smiles even though she's going through a rough time. she has the most fun with friends. she puts everyone's happiness before hers, she's not afraid to be herself. when she looks in the mirror, she doesn't see a pretty, hot, sexy, etc. girl. she sees a beautiful girl who has yet to find her place in this world and she lights the whole room up whenever she steps in. that's what made him fall for her in the first place.

You know that feeling, the one where you can feel your heart sink? The good kind of feeling, the one were you know you are more in love then you could ever imagine? You found the guy you want to be together with forever, and even forever seems to short.

this is the one. the one boy who is going to get me back out there. get me flirting again. get me actually trying to look decent in the morning. the one who gives me an ounce of hope again. and even if nothing happens between us, he was the first one who taught me to let go. and for that, he will always have a place in my heart.

So there's this boy – we argue a lot. He makes fun of me because I can't stay on the same subject for more than 5 seconds, before I'm on to the next one. He handles me when I’m sad and handles me when I'm mad. I tell him I hate him, and he responds with “no you don't”. Yeah – he’s not prince charming, but to me he couldn’t be more perfect.

This is how it goes. I will respect those who respect me, and forget those who forget me. Simple as that.

I know; we're complete strangers now. We both pretend like we don't care, but I can feel the tension as much as you can. I know how to hide my feelings from your piercing stare and no matter what you think, I still miss you.

I'm moving on. No more waiting. No more hurt. If you wanted me you could've had me, but you didn't. You blew your chances. Now, I hope you're happy living your life wondering "What if you took your chances with me?" cause I'm no longer here. I am no longer waiting.

Do you know what happens when you continuously ignore people? You're teaching them a happy life without you. The sun is going to shine and the rain is going to fall. In the end you might get burnt or wet, but that's life. So dance in the puddles and bathe in the sun; at the end of the day, smile. Everything is going to be alright.

If you love someone, tell them. Forget about the rules or fear of looking ridiculous. What is truly ridiculous is passing up an opportunity to tell someone that your heart is invested in him or her.

 Have a little faith not everyone's going to break your heart.

I don't need some elaborate apology. I don't need you to play our song in front of all our friends, or just me. I don't need you to wait outside my class with a dozen roses. I just need you to tell me simply that you're fucking sorry, and that you need me as much as I need you.

And I hope it makes you jealous when you see me holding his hand.  I hope it makes you squirm when he hugs me in the halls, I hope you stare right at us when he kisses me and I kiss back. I hope you finally miss me when you realize that I’m over you.

Life kicks you around sometimes. It scares you and it beats you up. But there’s one day when you realize you’re not just a survivor, you’re a fighter. You’re tougher than anything life throws your way.

I could forgive you & forget everything that happened. But that wouldn’t make it any better.  We’ll never be able to go back to the way it used to be. You had the world in your hands, but instead you threw it away.

You've got to learn to push through the hard times, because you have to face them. Running from them now, will only make you too tired to fight through when they catch up to you later.

be that strong girl that everyone knew would make it through the worst, be that fearless girl, the one who would dare to do anything, be that independent girl who didn't need a man, be that girl who never backed down.

She's beautiful but she'll never admit it. Music is her life, literally. Ask for a good song, she'll give you five. Jeans and wearing her hair down are her trademarks. She's afraid of the dark and obsessed with her friends. When she smiles her whole face lights up. And her heart is broken by a guy who doesn't love her. And you know what? She actually cares.

The most important thing in life is your family. There are days you love them, and others you don't. But, in the end, they're the people you always come home to. Sometimes it's the family you're born into and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself. - sex and the city

"You know what the best feeling in the world is? The feeling that nothing can touch you. The feeling that you are going to be okay forever & always. The feeling that everything is going to stay just how it is, and the feeling of being excessively and overly happy. The times when you're gasping for air from laughing, or nearly in pain from smiling so much. When you're with your friends, and you know this is how it's supposed to be. I love those times, and I love that feeling. I want to bottle it up and have it always, because that's what I think life is about. Forgetting the bad, and getting lost in the good."

I know that each and every one of you has felt, at one point, like you couldn't go on. But then you found hope. There's always some way to find hope. Remember that. - nick jonas

Keep your chin up and most importantly, keep smiling.
Because life is a beautiful thing and theirs much to smile about.
-- Marilyn Monroe

You have the ability to do anything you fucking want with your life and if anybody comes to you, and tells you how to think and how to feel, fuck them.

Fuck it. You throw a dart at a map, we'll go there and start new. Somewhere else in the world that's not here. Somewhere where we haven't said things to each other that we can't unsay and done things which we can't undo. There we can say new things. We can do new things. And those new things we say and do will be more important than the old things. Let's leave. Please. Leave with me.

Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call. Go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone. don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it may never come. Don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you. Or her. She’s not a fucking television show or a tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at for in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this. I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest. Making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breath into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone really is. That is raw and that is unguarded and that is all that is worth anything.

it's easiest when i don't see him, i won't deny that. but i just want to be able to see him without it hurting. i don't want him out of my life forever. i don't want to forget about him. i don't want him to forget me. i really, really don't.

i think everyone, at some point, goes through that one moment where they think "my God, i can't do this." but you know what? you can. no matter how close you are to the edge, no matter how badly you feel like giving up, or think it's best to do so rather than have to put up with the pain - don't. don't lose hope that things will get better. don't give up, because there is someone out there who will make you smile in a way no one else ever could. keep that glimmer of hope alive in your heart, because someone is out there searching for your smile. so wipe your tears and keep your head held high

I kinda just wanna run away. Not cause things are bad, or cause there's something to run from, just cause there's nothing in particular keeping me here.

Because you don’t deserve it. A second chance, let alone a third, fourth, fifth, sixth. I’m mad and sad, mostly I’m jealous because I wish I’d had as many chances as you’ve been given. Because I know I’d take it seriously. I wouldn’t take advantage of anyone. I wouldn’t lead anyone on. I would try my hardest not to hurt anyone, and that is so much more than I can say for you. I guess you’re just used to getting whatever you want. I’m done. Don’t call me.

sometimes they take people and they don't say why. Sometimes people leave and they never get to say goodbye. Sometimes there are no second chances to say I love you. Sometimes there are no next times.  Sometimes you lose someone and you feel like your  heart has followed them to Heaven.  & sometimes there is just nothing you can do to make the tears stop.

I got used to the truth and through the pain. I'll remain strong as I was before. I was broken, and if I stumble or fall I will not give in I will not give up.because that's who I am and you will not change me.I will change myself for my own reasons. I am tired of your games and I am not going to play along while you break my heart. If you loved me you would understand that.

Maybe instead of thinking you know everything, let go of your ego for a while and you'd start to get to know her. And maybe if you threw away your fears of getting hurt and just loved her, maybe you two could make it

i dont care if you miss me, i dont care if you want me back. because this time, you can fight for me. im not running back into your arms like everything alright, because its not. ive moved on & of course when im happy with someone else you come back & want me. sorry, ive changed & i will never take you back so please just give up..

So cry your eyes out, darling. He hurt you when he said he never would.  So many broken promises and lies, so many heartaches and tears,  all the pain he put you through, he doesn't deserve a girl like you.

He turned around, looked right at me and said nothing. Not even "hi." It was as if the months we had spent together, the times I'd helped him out, just weren't important. As if they never happened.

Confidence is key. Sometimes, you need to look
 like you're confident; even when you're not.
- Vanessa Hudgens

Don’t wait. Life’s too short to play games. If you love somebody and you wanna be with them, then go get them. Deal with the mess later we don’t know what tomorrow will bring. – one tree hill

There's a big fucking world out there. It's messy and it's chaotic and it's never what you expect. It's okay to be scared, but you cannot allow your fears to turn you into an asshole, not when it comes to the people that love you, the people that need you.

I just won’t relax, I can’t catch my breath. Because I’m sick and tired of “you’ll be fine”. Well how do you know, can you read minds? Have you ever felt so lost inside? So unloved within that you almost died? Have you ever stepped out of the light and realized there’s a stranger inside?