Because you know me right? You know me so well. You know everything about me, my influences, what hurts me, what helps me, what haunts me, you know it all right? You know what I've been through, going through and will go through don't you? You know all my choices and the reasons as to why I made them, right? Listen, think what you want when you come and mouth off about how ridiculous, or stupid, or slutty or dumb or ugly or whatever else you want to call me, but remember that you don't know half of the story, and I doubt when you're pointing the finger, your own slate is clean, is it?
-Lilo and Stitch
the quiet scares me cause it screams the truth
"please don't do this," she said softly, her eyes pleading as she stood there so close but seemingly so far from him. but she couldn't bring herself to beg, she wouldn't be that girl. she had long ago made a promise that she would never let a guy think she needed him so much. and she knew it would hurt, maybe for some time... but she also knew that she would make it, she was built strong. if he was gonna leave her, she'd rather him do it now so she could sooner start to pick up the pieces.
time doesn't heal you when you're not ready to move on.
it's funny how you can even take someone's voice for granted, and in the end, that voice... it just echoes memories straight back to you.
what happened to us? we were perfect together. one day i woke up and nothing was the same anymore. i miss being your favorite reason to smile & i miss seeing your name in my inbox every morning. most importantly, i hate how i'm sitting here not knowing if i ever cross your mind.
"you love him," he said to me in that open space. "and he loves you back." i pursed my lips as i felt eyes on me. i knew all of this. i've heard it so many times before, but nothing hit me quite like this statement in the recent past. the worst was when he questioned me: "so why don't you tell him?"
they said we stood a little too close & stared a little too long. they probably thought we were in love. but who knows... maybe we were.
i think you're one of those people who everyone falls in love with, even for a tiny bit. i have to remind myself that if you wanted to talk to me, you would.
i just wanna feel okay again. everything that's happened lately has been stretching my strength to it's very ends. i don't know how much longer i can hold on. i feel like i'm drowning, literally. i've been fighting this current for so long and i have been fighting desperately to stay at the surface. but now, all i wanna do is give up.
"I know in the back of my mind that life would be so much easier if I never talked to you again. If I shut you out of my life & moved on, I could finally get over you - but you're the only thing that makes me happy. Whether it's right or wrong. & I just don't have the strength to give up on that."
i loved you. and here's a news flash; you protected me from nothing. i spent time missing you, wondering what the hell i did wrong to make you do that to me. i thought everything was my fault. and even when I got over that, i still knew what i'd lost: you. you were the one who made me laugh when i had a crappy day. you were the one I vented to when i was mad, the one i shared all the good stuff with. you always knew when i was full of crap, and you always called me on it. you were smart, you were funny, and you were good-looking. You were mine. and then suddenly, you weren't. i knew every day exactly what i'd lost, and i missed you every day, and i believed in you every day, and my heart broke every day. that's the big favor you did for me. Thanks so much. here's the kicker - you weren't even protecting me. you were protecting yourself. if you'd give half a thought to me, you would have said goodbye.
As for being patient with fate and all, it's getting old. And my mind is slowly changing. I'm calling all my oldest friends, saying sorry for this mess we're in. And I'm waiting, waiting for the sun to come and melt this snow, wash away the pain and give me back control.
She's completely unexplainable. you think she's a good girl , but when you get to know her , she's everything. she's crazy. she's funny. she's honest. and you'll never know what she will do next.
You self-destructive little girl, pick yourself up, don't blame the world. So you've screwed up but you're gonna be okay. Now call your boyfriend & apologize. You pushed him pretty far away last night. He really loves you, you just don't always love yourself.
I'm not regretting anything. I'm going to look back and say "remember when." I'm doing this for my own sake. Who knows, maybe I will regret it in the long run, but right now, it's what I have to do. Whether I want to or not, it's the last choice I have.
If you can look me in the eyes and tell me that I don't matter, if you can kiss my lips and feel nothing inside of you, if you can hold my body close and say you love her more, then you can walk out of my life forever. And please, don't look back.
Just pretend that he never broke you down, and maybe that smile will come back to your lips. When someone says his name, block it out so your heart doesn't skip two beats. Erase his memory from your past if you ever want to feel alive again.
When the day comes that you don't cross my mind, and I finally do forget you for good, please don't remember me.
Do you remember when we first met? The way you looked I can't forget. I smiled at you and you smiled back. It felt just like a heart attack.
It really comes down to what you deserve, never be his second choice when you always put him first.
The bravest thing I ever did, was walk away from you.
sometimes when i'm walking down the hallway, your friends look at me. i wonder if they know.
Tell me, do you think I'm falling for him? All he means to me is a really good friend, someone who can make me laugh, make me smile, someone who I can joke around with, someone who I can be myself with. All he is to me is the person who gave me back my smile.
she'll chase you around for a while, but there's going to be a day when she's going to stop running in circles around you, she's going to get over you, and at that moment, you'll wish you had let her catch you
she landed smack in the middle of your world and turned everything upside down until you were addicted to her smile, her voice filled your dreams and everything that didn't make sense before, is all of a sudden perfect.
I remember all the late night talks and all the words I was comfortable saying to him, but I never would have been able to say to anyone else. I remember all the songs that take me back and make me smile. I remember all the promises we both knew would be broken. I remember all the moments he took my breath away and how he knew more about me than I thought anyone could. I remember the games we played because we talked so much we couldn’t think of anything tosay. I still think about the kind of person I must be to have thrown that all away.
And if I could tell you how I really felt, the world would be off my shoulders. And if I could live my days without the reminders, all my smiles would be real. And if I didn't have to worry about the future instead of what's going on today, I'd be able to breathe.
I want a person who comes into my life by accident, and stays on purpose.
i wish i could explain to you how i felt, because every night before i go to bed, you're all i think about.
I guess its because I can't help but to remember everything. I mean, you see somebody and you think about all they've ever said and done. The good and the bad. It all comes back to you, and it feels so right and hurts so bad all at once.
I dont know what it is about you. Maybe its the way nothing else matters when we’re talking, or how you make me smile more than anyone else has. It could be the way you say the right thing at exactly the right time. But whatever it is, I just want you to know that it means everything to me.
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